so this is what it has come to..

and the hardest thing to do,
is to let things happen..
i can only watch, and see for myself..
time will pass, and i will submerge in tears.

after all that i've fought for
after all the promises that i've broken
after all the effort that i've put in
after all of the hardship that i've faced
after all of the enemies that i've made
after all the pain that i've went through
after all of those hurtful things that you've said to me
after all of those tears that were wasted
after all of the bad reputations that i've made for myself
after all of those long nights and tiring mornings
after all the pain i've put YOU through
after all of YOUR tears wasted
after all the days that i've killed
after all the times i made you feel like running away
after all the times that i've made you not want me
after all those times you've pushed me aside..
after all those times i made you cry..
after all those times i've hurt you severely..
after all those times i've tried.. and tried..
so damn hard.. to try and make you become a better person
to change your lifestyle for the good.. and for our future..
but all i've done is push you away from me..
and now im paying for it.

so i guess i'll say..

i a m d o n e .

there's absolutely nothing within vincity..
that i can possibly do..
so have i..
given up?

the only thing left..
is to face the pain head on.
will i make it?
or will i be..
defeated.

oh robert,

you are my fucking hero.



love this shit.

so its 5:35 in the morning

okay so like i was editing a blog and i didnt copy and paste it right and i lost it. FUUCK. ill rewrite it tomorrow.