pooey.

if speaking up for myself causes problems, then ill just stop and suffer on my own accord, without telling you a single thing. you would know that there is something wrong with me. but will i tell you? no. try to pry it out of my and im 100% sure that you will not succeed. every single time that i've tried to speak up, you just drag me down. you yell at me you get mad at me. shit. im just trying to get a point across here. but you know what, i've come to the conclusion that you will NEVER understand me. so why would i even TRY to have you understand. i want you to understand me so badly. but let's face the facts. YOU DO NOT LEARN. YOU WILL NOT LEARN. look at my daily life, look at how much i have changed. look in my eyes and TELL ME THAT YOU DO NOT SEE ANYTHING WRONG WITH ME. ill fucking slap you. i dare you. look into my eyes and tell me that you do not see the pain.. dont see it? *slap. dumbass. see it now? do you know the reason? i bet you dont. take a wild guess but i wont tell you anymore.
im done im done im done im fuuucking done.